Reviving the Blog (Hopefully)

So I decided to make another post and revive this blog. Why? Because it's our semestral break and I'm bored. I'll (try) to publish posts as much many as I can. I'm not even sure if somebody reads my blogs posts but I don't really care that much. I just want to do something haha.

Ugh I hate myself. I really wanted to blog a while ago. But now, I don't know what to post and feels lazy to continue this. Please bear with me :))

Kumusta? Kamusta?

Just dropping by to say Hi! It has been a while since the last time I posted my last post (sounds redundant. haha) Well here you go, another post. a useless one. Okay. This will be all for now. Goodbye!

"And so, the dragon slept again for the next thousand years."

Change

Embrace the cold for it is coming.

Loosening tight strings.

Untying the knots that bind.

Expect change.

Trapped

A friend told me na tuwing nakikita nya ko, nawawala problems nya. It was so flattering that I had to blog it. Sabi nya, relax lang daw ako. Easy-easy. Not like the others, stress na stress sa buhay. Well it is true. But I'm not sure if it's good to be like that.

Yes.
I learned how to control stress before it controls me.
I learned to govern the flow.
I look at things with a positive point-of-view.
I felt so relax in the mentality I have.
I made a world with my own rules.
Rules that I can no longer alter.
And know I find myself trapped.
I can not escape.
I need to find a way out.
Out of the four corners of this world I created.
Help.

30DBC Day 4: List 5 things you would tell your 16 year-old self if you could.

I just turned 18 last June :)) It's not so long ago and I haven't change a lot. Telling my 16 year-old self things will be just like telling it to my present self. So, in this post, I'll list things I want to tell myself.

1. Delete the word 'procrastination' from your dictionary.

Me: This will be hard but I hope you can do it.

Me: With all these distractions present around me, how can I be productive!? I can just sleep, or surf the net, or watch the television instead of doing my school works. I can do it an hour before my first class anyway.

Me:  Shut up! Stop being lazy and do all the work that needs to be done long before it is due. Be productive you spoiled brat!

2. Spend wisely.

When I'm at school, I always end up spending too much on food. It's hard to study in a place surrounded by restaurants and cafeterias, y'know. I know it's not a bad thing, but I think I eat more than what is enough. I want to lose weight, you see, and eating too much is not helping me achieve that goal. And I hate the feeling of regret after spending and eating too much :(

3. Read! Read! Read!

As a student, this is one of the biggest problems I have in my academic life. I hate reading. Especially when the text to read is too long and boring and long and deep and long. I hate reading my notes and my school books. But I learned to love reading novels where my favorite movies are from just this semestral break. And I hope that the love I found in reading these novels will help me in overcoming my laziness at reading my school papers. Wish me luck!

4. Speak more.

I know some of my friends would say I speak too much, but I actually am not speaking too much. I speak with you too much because we're friends and that's what friends do. But when I'm with somebody I'm not that really friends with, I tend to zip my lips and just keep the thoughts I want to say to myself. I feel so antisocial. And I'm not like that. I want to be friends with everyone and have a good relationship with them.

5. Blog daily.

I'll be honest with you. I really don't know what to write for the fifth item so, yeah, blog daily. As you can see, the blog challenge really is intended to be done everyday in 30 days. But I already failed in the fourth day. But I did told you about how I can not do this everyday, maybe because of my school works and my social life. I really want to fill this blog with posts about myself, the world, and everything that comes in between. This blog also serves as a practice for my writing skills. For the second time, wish me luck! :) 

 

Random Thought #1: Artificial Intelligence

What if life is like a single player game? Your body is the character and the voice inside you is the player. The player may wish to do everything he wants to but is limited by the skills of the character he has chosen to be.

What if just like in every single player game, you are the only character and everything else are just illusions? You have missions to accomplish and skills to learn. And everything that has happened and will happen is already plotted in the story of the game.

What if each and every person you encounter each and everyday are just artificial intelligences? They differ from one another based on the design of the Creator. And their mission is to test how good a character you can be.

Well, life really is a game. You sometimes win, you sometimes lose. And when we lose and fall, we begin to question ourselves: Is this really the character that can put me to the top? Can I really make it and finish this game with pride and dignity?

Just like what I have said, losing and falling is part of the game. The important thing is, the game we play gives us chances. It give us opportunities to level up. And it is up to us if we will use this chance to improve and upgrade our characters, or just be contented on the level we are in and embrace the difficulties the level gives us. You choose.

30DBC Day 3: What is the greatest amount of physical pain have you ever endured?

I think, the greatest amount of physical pain that I have ever endured was the pain I got after training boxing for the first time. I sometimes accompany my aunt in the boxing gym and train as well, but I'm not really into boxing. We were given different trainers but same exercises. We jogged around the ring as a warm-up exercise, did some boxing routine and abdominal exercises, and got a massage after the training from our trainers to cool our bodies down. When I got home, I took a bath and went to sleep as I was really tired. When I woke up, I can hardly move. My joints and muscles were aching so badly. It was so hard to go up and down the stairs, to stand up and to sit down, and even to take a step and walk. The pain lasted for three days. It was a really hard but it's a good thing to experience ;)

30DBC Day 2: Describe 3 legitimate fears you have and describe how they became fears.

For the second day of this challenge, I'll describe 3 fears although I really do not know how they became fears.

1. Ghost

I'm not really that afraid in ghosts. In fact, I love hearing stories about them. I have even experienced ghost hunting in one of the biggest universities in the country.

We attended a stargazing event there to watch for the Geminids meteor shower. Unfortunately, the weather did not cooperate with us. Yes, it rained, the whole night! We waited at the lobby of the building for the rain to stop. And guess what, it didn't. So we decided to go ghost hunting instead. We roamed around the campus at three o'clock in the morning. It was really dark and scary, but it was fun too. And it was a great experience! You should try it some time :))

I'm just afraid of watching horror movies. I can't watch them alone. I imagine so many things when I'm alone remember? And I'm really observant at details so I easily remember scary faces, even if I don't want to.

2. Open Wounds

I really can't lay my eyes on bleeding wounds. I feel so weak every time I see blood flowing out of a wound. I don't know why but I hate seeing it. Actually, my dream was to become a doctor when I was little. But it all changed after I discovered my fear.

3. Spiders

This is my greatest fear, especially the big and hairy ones. I can't imagine myself touching a spider. I do not take a bath or empty my bowels when there is a spider in the wall. Magkamatayan na tayo 'wag lang ako madikitan ng gagamba! =)))

There you go! This is the first time I admitted all of my fears. It's hard but I'm proud that I've done it!

30DBC Day 1: List 10 random facts about yourself.

For the first day of the challenge, I'll list down 10 random facts about me that most of my friends don't know.

1. I'm the grumpiest person you'll ever meet in the morning.

I don't exactly know why I'm like this. You can't talk to me in the morning, I just don't like talking with someone after I wake up. I am easily pissed off when things go wrong, even if it's small. I get angry when there's no coffee or sugar or creamer, or when someone's telling me to do something.

2. I love music.

I love listening to it, playing it, singing it, or even dancing to it. Before, I always bring my earphones with me and listen to the songs in my phone on my way to school/home. But I slashed that habit. It's bad for your ear if you wear earphones everyday. I know how to play the lyre, the guitar, and the piano. I also sing, even if it's not that obvious. In fact, I was a choir member before. I sing when I'm alone, when I'm washing the dishes, and when I'm taking a bath.

3. I'll do a job If I want to even if I don't have to.

I'll tell you a story. I joined an org in our school and applied as the publicity head, the one responsible for designing posters for the org. But instead of appointing me as the publicity head, I was given a position I don't really know about. One time, I was asked to partner with the publicity head to make a poster. I designed the said poster. Luckily, they loved it and now, I am the person they ask whenever the org needs a poster, even if I'm not in the position to make one ;)

4. Rice is my life.

The size of my body proves the statement :)) I can't eat without rice. A meal is incomplete and shall not be eaten if there's no rice. The flavor of the food is, like, wasted if you'll eat it without rice (of course the 'food' I am referring to here are the ones usually partnered with rice). The problem is, the more rice you eat, the bigger size your body gets. So moderation is still an important factor to consider when eating :))

5. I always have with me my hankie or my blankie.

(Those are handkerchiefs and blankets if you don't know.) I have an allergy so I need them. I have my blankie at home and the more 'presentable' hankie when I'm outside the house. I used them to cover my nose from smelly odors, or to wipe something off something.

6. I don't like being alone or being left behind.

I have a high wanted inclusion. I want people around me and people to talk with. I love going out with my family and friends. I don't know why but I love social gatherings. I feel very very sad when someone forgot to invite, intentionally and unintentionally. And when I'm alone, I tend to think about things or happenings that make me mad. I overthink and overthinking is bad according to psychologists. So don't leave me behind, okay? :)

7. I hate walking barefoot.

I always wear slippers in our house. I just hate my feet touching the floor, even if the floor here in the house is clean. Your feet will get dirty eventually if you walk barefooted. I hate the feeling of stepping on dusty surfaces. It just feels so uncomfortable.

8. Brushing my teeth in the morning is a must.

I sometimes sleep without brushing my teeth but morning brush can not and shall not be skipped. When people sleep, bacteria grow inside their mouth causing bad morning breath. And I don't want to have these bacteria stay in my mouth the whole day. Besides, the feeling is so icky in the morning because of your unswallowed saliva (I don't know if the term 'unswallowed saliva' is right :)) )

9. I love solving and hate memorizing.

Let me solve the hardest problem you know, just don't let me memorize. I love solving because it's a step-by-step process. You just have to use your common sense. But memorizing is a torture. When you memorize, you are forcing your mind to hold information, and this is bad. The key in memorizing is not memorizing, but understanding. If you understand what you are studying, then you don't have to memorize it. And when you take an examination, the idea will come naturally.

10. I am quite artistic.

I'm not that good in drawing but I am good at making things look beautiful. That's why I love doing high school projects, even if doing the content is boring, designing the project is so much fun. I also design my sister's projects sometimes when I am free.

I really have more facts to tell, but rules are rules :/ This is why I sometimes hate rules!

30 Day Blog Challenge

Since I'm not that active at blogging, I decided to take a blog challenge I saw somewhere. The rule is simple, you just have to blog about the topics listed on the site where I saw this challenge. This is supposed to be done everyday, however, I'm not sure if I can do it everyday due to the heavy load of school works given to me by my professors. Here's the link of the site if you also want to take this:

http://www.canigetanotherbottleofwhine.com/p/30-day-blog-challenge-list.html.

Wish me luck!